First off, I'm going to have to say Thank You. All of you. For your concern, your emails, comments, bbms, feedback, and for understanding.
Audit. That's what my short hiatus was. An assessment of my current state. I had contemplated leaving the posts concerning this audit up for all to see when I came back. But you don't need to see all that craziness. So I'll give you the cliff notes. Here are some things I considered while I was away:
- shutting down the blog completely. I can't do that. I love writing too much and I love blogville even more. I can't leave you guys.
- giving up sex. Ha! I actually considered this seriously for a full minute before I started cracking up. It's not going to happen any time soon.
- a complete blog 180. A fresh start. Delete all my old posts. Only talk about philosophical, and religious matters. But then that wouldn't be a true representation of myself. I will continue to be Scribbles, sans a bit of the graphic content. Which brings me to...
- cutting down on the sex posts. That I'm going to do. No more "sex stories". I mean, if sex is involved in a story, fine. But I will no longer tell my stories simply for the purpose of feeding blogvilles sexual appetite. As much as I love you guys, continuing to do that, especially as I have trouble keeping blogville and real life separate, will have a severely detrimental effect on my life, and especially my relationship with God.
- speaking of God, I talked to him today for the first time in a very long time. I feel at peace now.
- The conclusion, while I may still be zig-zagging along The Way, I've decided I don't want to lead anyone away from it.
I've had conversations with a few people in the past week that have helped me along this path. To those people, I am eternally grateful.
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33 comments:
hey! good to have you back!
eh ya, wish i was a fly on that wall. we all deviate from the path in one way or the other all the time. but He expects it of us, we are but mortal dust. the fact that you fight to get back on it is what He really asks of you.
feel you on the sex post thing. it comes to me, i put it down, and i move on. otherwise, there's lots of other things to write about.
as i said, good to have you back.
dang!!second...
glad u is back mate.....though i will miss d sex posts but wen God yarns u smetin its best ta comply..same reason why I went celibate...neways knowin u ur blog wil stil b interestin wiv or wivout d sex...though its a welcome addition...dunno hw Confessions is gonna take it though...nehehhehe
Nice...very nice. I love your blog but I was contemplating giving up your blog cos each time I finish reading, there will be so much heat in my loins and I would be looking for the next woman to devour. You are a very good writer scribz...and I know it is going to be interesting even without the sex.
You are peace now....all that matters is that you are peace*
welcome bk scribbles..just keep doing your thing xx
Awww Scribbles..this was rather inspiring..
It wasn't the sex stories that made you, you really do write brilliantly. I'm sure your fan base won't waver..
Good luck with the new you..
Awww glad to see you back...
Your posts can be "smoky" atimes but you're a brilliant writer...so regardless...we...at least I will be reading your posts!
awwww Happy you talked...and no problem,anytime.
glad you are back, you know you have to help me with my grad school essays, good writer that you are!
welcome back. its good to have you with us again :)
lol @ "not feeding blogville's sexual appetite"
We're very happy to have you back. Even if you choose to go totally 360 on us, we'll still read you.
I know there's more to Scribbles other than sex, and we'll totally love to see that part too!
xoxo
Yay, scribz is back!! Seeing as i haven't been here very long 'sex talk' is all i know so it'll be nice to see this 'at peace' side of you.
Glad you were able to talk to the Master.
Yay!! Glad you sorted things out.
like i often say "you do you as best as you can cuz noone can do you quite like you can"...hopefully dat makes sense.
so glad that u r back! phew! thot i had been blocked out 4ea!
ps..am glad u r back! we all wander sumtimes, and i think its expected and allowed. As far as u find ur way back...
gosh i sound all grown up! lol!
Just glad to hae u back regardless of wat u blog abt!
Glad to see ur back babes, missed ya
BTW, without the 'sex stories', u'll still be scribbles. And that means we'll still love you. At least I'll still lust you. lol. @ Dante, 'loins'?
:) Glad u're back. A little reflection is needed from time to time. Good to know u sorted it out. Even if ur posts are not about sex, we love u anyways.
I'm sure derez more 2 u dan just ur sex stories............so we'l be waitin 2 see wt uv got....gud ur nt quittin entirely tho.
U never did strike me as a runner..
So long as it works for you. That is all that matters.
I know u've been waiting for my comment..
I'm here now Scri-bizzle, u can rest easy..hehehe
ok seriously tho.
I totally appreciate your honesty and respect you for sharing your humanity.
We all struggle..we all waver..but HE never fails to set us right, never fails to call to us.
Good on you for finding your peace.
but tell me; did you think sex was your only appeal??
dude, the way you write? i'd prbly still read you even if you were writing about botany!!
(p.s n.e.v.e.r write abt that tho)
awwww...
u sound like me with this "uncertainties" and "personal wars" u have with urself (i might have used the wrong words but u get my drift)
wont deny that i'll miss the ahem... graphic posts, and i have a feeling that they'll be back, but whatever u write now will still be fun to read Scribbles, cuz u write good!
wait a minute? does this "born again" Scribbles mean we no longer get S.O.M.E.?
p.s. i need too catch up on the other blogs actually, would those ones be affected too?
Soyez de Bienvenue
Willkommen zurück an Bord
Welcome back
forgotten the spanish jo!
lol
MWAH!
Hey,glad to have you back!
Truth is i loved the non-sexual posts more so will still be a great fan of yours as you write beautifully and maybe God can use that channel to send out words to us mortals.
please don't ever consider closing blogsville o, you wan kill my crush? I'm sticking with you Scribz,stay!
thanks guys....You are all amazing people
It is good to see you back Scribs. :-)
I was gonna ask if you were gonna change the tag since you were cutting down on the sex posts, but I see you already did.
Hi Scribble, i'm glad your back and not private again.
I understand that sometimes we need to reflect on life issues.
I am happy you got through what you where going through.
And looking forward to your new post.
Love the poeme you posted today.
Keep up the good work.
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