Epiphany: I'm actually not a kid any longer :(

I'm sitting here, thinking about my vodafone contract which doesn't expire until next February and I think, that's not too far away.

I mean, WTF?? I remember a time when 6 months, heck 3 weeks, felt like AGES. Now, it seems to me like no time at all. I find myself now starting to understand my parent when they would tell me in first year at Uni; "it'll be over before soon, before you know it". I'm sitting there thinking "4 years?!?! Soon??" I guess to my 17 year old mind it was roughly 25% of my entire life.

Now I look back at the time I ended up spending in higher education and 4 years seems like nothing. I guess the older we get, the faster time flies. Especially when you have responsibilities, like a job, a mortgage/rent, etc and you work 50-80% of the time. Time just seems to pass you by. I've been at my job 8 months now. Still feel like I started yesterday.

Therein lies the paradox.

I'm so old now that I feel young. I feel like the past 8 years were no time at all and as such I feel as if I'm still the kid I was 8 years ago. I'm aware I may not be making any sense right now, but that's how conflicted I feel.

This is why when my parents mention maritally minded relationships, the romantic old soul with me agrees with them and yearns for it, but the playful young boy resists...obviously he has powers of veto right now.

A wise man once said 30 is the new 20. And in this microwage age when the good old days don't really seem all that "old", he may well be right.

Except for 1 minor little thing.

Yesterday, I found myself looking in the mirror, pulling grey hairs out of my head. I'm flipping 24. It's not even like I let myself get stressed. The one consolation I have is the age old perception that it is a mark of wisdom.

And I do consider myself quite wise(Sharrap there! I said I'm wise) , beyond my years even. May not necessarily be conventional wisdom. I may "buck the trend" every so often, but there's often wisdom in my motives.

So I've come to the conclusion that I'm a grown kid, facing the world with sage-like wisdom and child-like innocence. And for that, the world is my oyster

If you haven't figured it out by now, I had absolutely nothing to say today. (I still have stories to tell, just no energy to tell them) so I thought I'd just write as the words came to me. Enjoy!

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