So it would seem I left quite a few people confused by yesterday's post. Understandable since I was a little under the influence of pink wine and purple haze. So I'll explain.
"I just got dumped"---Ok, maybe I was being a little melodramatic there. Girl I've been seeing; the one from the last few posts, she says she doesn't think we should see each other right now because she has too much going on. And I'm too much of a distraction. Normally, I would shrug something like this off as a "plenty of other fish in the sea" situation, but there's something different about this girl. I've been feeling pretty crap-like since yesterday.
So when Miss Keys called and said she wanted to come over, I thought "Great, at least when Karma deals me a blow she throws in a cushion to soften my fall".
She came over, we talked, we drank, we smoked (i haven't blazed in over 3 years), her boyfriend called and yelled at her about being at some "nex man's" house at 11pm. We talked about giving him something to really be mad about.
I woke up with a start. Looked at the time. 230am. *Shit, I think she missed the last bus...ah well*
I must have jerked and kicked her when I woke up. She got up a few seconds later from where she'd fallen asleep at the foot of the bed, looked at the time. "Fuck!"
(For those of you who keep talking about me "doing something silly", she was fully clothed, as was I, and we were on opposite ends of the bed. No kissing, touching or fondling had occured.)
Anyway, she tfl'd and found a route home. She'd promised she'd be home before daylight. I walked her to the bus stop, came back home, and typed yesterday's post. Then I went back to feeling sorry for myself.
Now that you're all up to speed...
WTF is up with this? I don't feel this way. EVER! Especially not after a week. A friggin week! There is a very unfamiliar throbbing in my chest. And no matter what I tell myself, it won't go away. I'm going to lunch with friends and putting on a brave face. Pretending to be ok. Smiling and laughing. When smiling and laughing is the last thing I want to do right now.
I know I said I'd fight, but I've done everything I can think of doing. I'm beginning to think it's a little ridiculous the way I'm going on. especially since, did I mention, it's only been a WEEK?? Lord, I hope this is just an infatuation, me wanting something simply because I can't have it... because if it's something more....I...
Drastic measures needs be taken
Edit: When I say a week, I mean I've known her a week.
Alright Already!
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FIRSTTT
Off to read d previous post..yippee..havent been first anywhere in eons
its only been a week..fight for longer pls..we women smtimes like men to be consistent & persistent..she seems worth fighting for..a week is not enuf..if u give up now, she will thing she made d right decision.
sounds to me like she needs reassurance, u need to make her realise u guys being 2gether is not impractical..that u really do care..i'ld say fight some more..my 2 cents
At the risk of sounding pessimistic, you sure this isn't a clear case of the challenge whetting your appetite?
I would bet she needs to know you're not just around for 5 minutes and you need to check that you're not just interested because she's making it a bit difficult for you.....
Welcome to the club hun!
I know I feel worse...and even though I was one of the ones that told you to fight yesterday,you wouldnt hear me say that right now...no more fight left in me...Some times, it's just too hard to fight- especially when you dont know if you should be fighting...
its hard when you're not used to it huh..
Been there.. once. Never wanna go there again. it'll pass..
I still think you should fight for it though. Not in a desperate way, but in an "i know this is right" way.
if u feel its right then go for it, else u just need to clear ur mind & move on.
3 break ups this year? wow
Not to undermine your situation.
But the heart wants wat it cant have the most.
The way i see it its ur hearts way of throwing a tantrum.
It doesnt make wat you are feeling any less painful but me thinks all you need is another distraction.
The longer you dwell on her the more ur heart creates visions of wat isnt there.
WTF did i just type?? This is some Dr Phil sturvs!
I wish I could give you advice, but I'm not good at hiding how I feel about people good or bad. If I like you, there will be no doubt but I'd still need to be sure. I think you should talk to my friend Monsieur Sofisticat, he's good at this sort of thing. I'll get him to stop by.
Cheer up. These feelings do pass.
I AM SOMEWHAT confused:(
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww Darl, Sorry.
It will get better, if she doesnt come back.
Love and Infatuation SUCKS MEN.
IT SUCKS
and its GOING to suck for a while. but after, after, U will feel better. You know what u need to do, U need to find ways of HATING her. Like look for flaws and vices and then BLOW it up. Works like a charm. That is my Ultruistic Act of the Day. XOXO
U've only known her a week?
Well here's the game plan *dusting off her version of 'how to be a player'*(At least in my crazy head.): I don't think u should continue to aggressively pursue her. Give her some space, but never leave the picture. (Chances are, if ur heart is still throbbing after a week, u either are in love with her for real or u wanna shag her sumn serious)Either way, get laid so u don't come off as a desperado, but keep trying. It can only go 2 ways. Either she gives u the green light or she tells u to BUZZ OFF!
Good luck, scribbs!
*Rubs her hands together 'let the games begin'* ;)
Hey Scri-bizzle.
First; THANK YOU for clearing that up!
I read it and all I could think was "huh?", but now I "hundastand" =)
I dont know Scribz..I guess you'll know soon enuff if its the big "L" or chick just made it that much farther under your skin than most.
Either way; do whatever you need to..there's no rule of thumb about these things.
Find what works for you..xx
Welcome to our world SCribbles. That is how heart aches/ brusied hearts feel. U dont want to feel a heart break or a heart being turn apart.
Oh dear...I can only think of one sentence or is it phrase for this mode you're in...YOU GOT IT BAD!!!
I really hope everything works out...like I asked in the previous 2/3 posts, is this LOML or yes?
Oh dear...I can only think of one sentence or is it phrase for this mode you're in...YOU GOT IT BAD!!!
I really hope everything works out...like I asked in the previous 2/3 posts, is this LOML or yes?
wow scibbles you really got it bad, and its just a week..
its either you want her because you can't have her or you are really into the girl
good luck..
Que sers sera socio.
LOL!!! scribz, ONE WEEK?? are you sure it's not ego talking? "how dare she not want/make time for ME?" lol
OR maybe your change of heart from last week is doing more than you know...hmmm
Either way give her the space she has requested but keep in touch...either the ache wears off or it strengthens. If the latter happens welllll....lol
*Points and laughs at Scribs*
Hehehehehehehehehehe!
sigh..
growing pains. you'll be fine.
Lol..
Me thinks Repressed One has a point..
It's only been one week dude..
Oh wow..just a week..she must be really WONDERFUL for u to have these, uh, feelings..
U sound like u dont wanna give up..so dont.
Aight homes. I had NO idea you'd only known the girl one week?! Are you just toastin' her extra hard cuz she's not agreeing? You sure it's not a bruised ego? Are you just into the chase? I think niggas LOVE the chase! Then, once the catch is complete, they start acting brand new! Hehehe.
Here I am thinking the babe was LOML or something! No, but seriously, persist in a subtle way. Desperation is so foul and perverse that it's a complete turn-off..stick around a bit..if she's anything like me (or most girls) she'll slowly start to realize your potential.
Did I mention that I LOVVVVE your blog :p.
Karma is a B***h..lolz!
r u sure the feeling is not cuz she made d dumping move? but if not, i guess a lil part of u may have been feeling something real for her cuz rumor has it u men always know what u want right from scratch
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