Something's happened...Something bad

I don't know how or when it happened. I don't know why or what caused it.

All I see is the effects. All I see is the results of this thing that happened.

Some of you may have noticed. A few of you might already know.

If you have, can you tell me why? Or what?

No, I haven't lost my mojo...or have I?

I haven't lost my ability to turn a phrase... or have I?

Is it writer's block when you have a topic, a theme, content, a plot, a sequence (a few of them too)...but no words?

Is it writer's block when you find yourself leaving inarticulate, unintelligent comments on other blogs?

Or just skipping the commenting altogether to avoid sounding like a total twat...

There isn't much I outrightly fear...but I fear this... God, I fear this (forgive me Lord)

I value my intelligence, my creativity, my wordsmanship...above any of my other qualities

And to lose that...my fingers tremble over the keyboard at the thought

Trepidation intensified by the fact that after years of soul-searching, I finally defined myself as a writer.

What is a writer who cannot write?

A/An 'r'?... I joke, but there is nothing funny here. This here be gallows humor.

This is not bloggaria. This is something worse. This is death

For if I cannot write, I cannot live.

I breathe through the words that leave my fingertips.

My heart palpates to the rhythm of metaphors (further problem; I had to look up the spelling of "rhythm"...wasn't sure)

Similes flow unobstructed through my veins

Familiar to white blood vessels, this is their home

So when they are gone, I starve for them

My heartrate slows without a rhythm to follow

My blood pressure drops... how else would you explain the ache in my fingers

Blood starvation, word starvation

I NEED TO WRITE!!!!

Five drafts, started...abruptly paused mid first paragraph, no further words come. FIVE!

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17 comments:

Peaches said...

if you need to write, get to writting then dammit lol....but you just wrote something, so smile...just in case u didn't notice lol
delete the 5 u already have and start again....

BBB said...

even though this was supposed to be a complain.. it was written extremely well...
had the right flow.. and plenty of grammar.. u still have it my friend fear not...

Miss Natural said...

ok...so in agreement with the other comments what u've just written was true wordmanship. you still have it, maybe you just need inspiration (like the fear that made you write this) for it to come out.

BSNC said...

I noticed, but i no wan say anything.. just pulling your legs o. Abeg relax jare, you still got it. Did i ever tell you you are wonderful writer... for real, no jokes. Just take your time, it will all come back to you.

Once a thief always a thief. okay that is not a good example, but you get my point. Once a good writer always a better..

chayoma said...

all u need is inspiration...do something out of the ordinary today!Something not in your to-do list!
It most definitely is still there...i mean u did write this post, didnt u

Qube said...

bruv....ur writeup is lovely....

Writers block my natural black butt

c_u_o said...

You'll be fine. I like the suggestion to do something out of the ordinary. Better yet, is there something you love that you haven't indulged in for ages?

A break is never a bad thing. You'll feel better for recharging yourself *nods*

RepressedOne said...

...and writing is what you just did, dear.

Don't think about it too much that way you're not putting pressure on yourself to produce...it'll all come back to you.

bumight said...

it was me!
remember i said not to write anything funny/interesting/etc till i get back. well, u didnt listen, so i had to.
now all u have to do to get it back is...

Artsville said...

I thought this was a well written piece. Keep at it.

Tigeress said...

eeeeeeemmmm..........u just wrote me dear! :)

juiceegal said...

Like everyone said....u just wrote dint u???
U'l be fine.....takin breaks at times is always a gud thing..so now ur break is over,get back to work...we are waitin

Imoteda said...

Dramatic much????

Chilll... don't stress so much about it. It'll come to you
And you just wrote so...

scribble,me.free said...

awww...u guys are the best. :) Imoteda, you're right.. I was being a tad melancholic there.

Bumight! i knew it. Give it back! Dont make me send them

JJ said...

It sure doesn't seem like you lost your writing mojo, because what you have up there is simply amazing! You probably just need plenty motivation. Get on it.
P.S: I sometimes have a problem spelling 'rhythm' also.

Buttercup said...

Awww so you really do love writing that much. I wish I were as passionate about something as you are about your writing. Are you stressed at the moment? Who knows, maybe that's what is hindering your creative juices from flowing freely..

lady koko said...

buahahah!!!! MID-BLOG CRISIS!!!!!! loooool.....ARE YOU KIDDING ME THOUGH?? u update more or less everyday.....YOU STILL GOT IT BABY!!!!!!!
an if ever there came a time when you lost it.....even in your lack of words..EVEN IN YOUR SILENCE...I'LL STILL LURRRRRRVE YOU!!!!!! *you just have it like that* hehe
p.s: xoxo

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