I want to introduce you to the love of my life...or as i affectionately call her, LOML. I've known her for as long as I can remember but we only recently began to get really close and started to realise that there existed something between us. She is probably the person I care most about in this world and the yardstick no other woman can measure up against and I wish I had started this blog earlier, so I could have introduced her in all her glory. But this is the way it's turned out. She will remain nameless as will everyone who I talk about on this blog, but u can refer to her as LOML. The one I esteem greatly and love deeply. The most amazing woman that ever lived.
So, I said I wished I had introduced her earlier. That's because as I speak of her today, it is under a cloud of humanness. She recently committed an error of judgement that hurt me. And I tried to understand why I was hurt. Our relationship is very complex and open and as such she is free to do as she pleases as am I. I've never had a problem in the past with her being involved with a guy because we have an understanding in our relationship...we remain LOMLs. But this time was different, and I cant go into detail about it because it's really none of ur business, but there's a line....
Anyway, she asked me to forgive her, and at first, not feeling like I had a right to be hurt in the first place, I didnt know how. But she is the love of my life and I didnt need to think about it that long. I now know why I was hurt, and I know why I must forgive her and in my pensiveness I picked up a pen and wrote:
You
You
Who I esteem greatly
Who I hold closest to my heart
You
With your sarcastic nature
You
Who I have everything and nothing in common with
You
Who is simultaneously totally right and totally wrong for me
I love your cynicism
I love your wit
I love the fact that we agree that our parents are the single
most stressing factor in our lives
I admire everything about u
And I saw no fault in u
So when u told me, I felt something break inside of me
For I had never imagined a weakness in you
My mind painted a perfect picture of u
And this ill-placed brush stroke like graffiti accross the face of art
It perturbed my soul
So when I told you I was hurting, it wasnt really your doing
Because I now realise that no human being can live up to the perfection
of the picture I painted of you
And you are human
So I forgive you
I forgive your humanness
And I forgive myself for trying to take that away from you
You
Who I still hold nearest to my heart
You
Who is still the single most important person in my life
You
Who remains the undying love of my life,
And I still love you, now more than ever
LOML
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As you may have guessed...I just discovered this blog today...and I'm reading everything...I mean e-v-e-r-y thing!!!...quite an interesting read! It's amazing how "the one" can do no wrong!!!...but then like you said...todos somos humanos...
Awww...scribbles in love? Now why does dat sound foreign to me hears... So, pray tell... wat did LOML do?
lovely..u truly have d soul of a poet.. im very happy u feel this strongly abt someone and that u knw ur own mind.. u r a good good boy, mwah...
and i understand what u mean by humanness and abt how whatever happened wasnt supposed to matter/hurt u but it did.. that my friend is the way of love..
that said.. u might want to move quicker than 5 yrs..other men will want her too..imagine how u will hurt if u hear she's getting married tomorrow...that wld be GAME OVER. consider giving it a real shot..
awwwww how lovley
And you're not together becos.....?
ahhh, now i see. but then, what did she tell u? ;0
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