i'm writing this one from the heart
at least from somewhere that feels like it
so if there is no function or form to this piece
please dont judge
because today i write not to inspire
or to encourage
today i write to ask for help
i need direction,
you can call this a prayer
because i feel my faith slipping
I know you are there but why do I find it so hard to reach for you
i find myself doubting, even myself
the things that I know, things i do all seem an exercise in futility
i find myself resigned in impotent acceptance of life
slothful and slumbering, having no purpose or worth to my life
i'm surrounded by people that i'm supposed to love
but i'm afraid that i dont know what love is
so i'm lonely
surrounded by people, beautiful people
but still lonely
i thought i was on the road to self discovery
but i hit a dead end and now i'm back where i started
back at the beginning
and it's cold here,
i'm cold, unfeeling, void
there is no passion in me, no fire in me
no light, no desire in me
and i have no further words to describe this lack of feeling
so i'll stop here
dont ask me what's wrong, just pray for me
me and my God have a score to settle
from the heart
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